[It's tempting to take him up on it. Tommy is right: Jesse is only
here for his deal, and anything else is a waste of time. But he needs to be
up to the challenge when he gets his permanent inmate, so he asks:]
You're only my second inmate. Think I could, like, get some practice in? Or
some advice?
Initiative with what? Look, whatever, okay? I'm not trying to date your crusty old ass. I figured we could go grab a slice, okay, maybe you could tell me what it was like for you. Make this go a little quicker and a little easier for whoever comes after you.
If you don't wanna do that, don't expect me to come begging, or getting out the whip and chain, or whatever's gonna make it easier to hate me, okay? Go ahead and hate me anyway! I could give a fuck!
[He's losing it. He can tell he is. His second inmate, and his second time fucking it up, but he can't really seem to do anything about it. He grinds his teeth, digs his nails into his palms, trying and failing to ground himself again.]
Don't do this to other inmates, Pinkman. Me, I know what it's like.
But you have be more patient than this with people who aren't me, with the
inmate you'll end up with. That's my advice.
All I know is that I never had a temporary inmate, and Nux went home in under a year. [Because he can hurt, too, if Jesse's going to be this spiteful.]
You're angry that I'm not cooperating like you'd hoped. There are so many people here like that, who'll push you and lose trust if this is how you talk to them.
[He's not wrong, obviously. Jesse clearly knows he's not. Tommy is articulating thoughts he's already having right now anyway. He grits his teeth harder and shakes his head, rubs a hand over his face, glancing away while he tries to reel it back in.
It just-- it never comes back as easy as it used to. Not that he'd ever been great at hiding his feelings, but he could breathe, he could listen, he could stay calm. Now every fucking thing seems like a threat, even on the other end of the phone. He breathes in deep.]
If I knew what would help, why would I need you? I'm not going to cooperate just because you've had a bad time of it, Pinkman. That won't teach you anything, if that's what you really want out of this month.
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Date: 2016-10-01 11:47 pm (UTC)[Not what he'd been expecting, even as angry as Tommy had been on that post before.]
[video]
Date: 2016-10-02 03:12 pm (UTC)You can focus on other things, I can go on without being bothered.
Re: [video]
Date: 2016-10-02 05:01 pm (UTC)[It's tempting to take him up on it. Tommy is right: Jesse is only here for his deal, and anything else is a waste of time. But he needs to be up to the challenge when he gets his permanent inmate, so he asks:]
You're only my second inmate. Think I could, like, get some practice in? Or some advice?
[video]
Date: 2016-10-02 05:06 pm (UTC)[He isn't quite amenable to the idea of that- there's a little too much resentment in him right now.]
Re: [video]
Date: 2016-10-02 05:15 pm (UTC)It's worth it.
[Zero doubt in his mind.]
And apparently, I already was an inmate.
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Date: 2016-10-02 05:23 pm (UTC)[video]
Date: 2016-10-02 07:00 pm (UTC)[video]
Date: 2016-10-02 07:32 pm (UTC)I'm assuming you're not going to leave me alone, then.
[video]
Date: 2016-10-02 08:07 pm (UTC)[video]
Date: 2016-10-02 09:17 pm (UTC)[video]
Date: 2016-10-02 09:18 pm (UTC)[video]
Date: 2016-10-02 10:44 pm (UTC)[video]
Date: 2016-10-03 01:16 am (UTC)If you don't wanna do that, don't expect me to come begging, or getting out the whip and chain, or whatever's gonna make it easier to hate me, okay? Go ahead and hate me anyway! I could give a fuck!
Re: [video]
Date: 2016-10-03 12:57 pm (UTC)Are you done?
[Not that he means to sign off if he is; he just wants to know if that was the end of that rant.]
[video]
Date: 2016-10-03 02:44 pm (UTC)[He's losing it. He can tell he is. His second inmate, and his second time fucking it up, but he can't really seem to do anything about it. He grinds his teeth, digs his nails into his palms, trying and failing to ground himself again.]
Re: [video]
Date: 2016-10-03 03:31 pm (UTC)Yes.
Don't do this to other inmates, Pinkman. Me, I know what it's like. But you have be more patient than this with people who aren't me, with the inmate you'll end up with. That's my advice.
[video]
Date: 2016-10-03 03:39 pm (UTC)Re: [video]
Date: 2016-10-03 04:46 pm (UTC)You're angry that I'm not cooperating like you'd hoped. There are so many people here like that, who'll push you and lose trust if this is how you talk to them.
[video]
Date: 2016-10-04 01:29 am (UTC)It just-- it never comes back as easy as it used to. Not that he'd ever been great at hiding his feelings, but he could breathe, he could listen, he could stay calm. Now every fucking thing seems like a threat, even on the other end of the phone. He breathes in deep.]
I know I'm not good with this.
[He manages, eventually.]
That's why I was asking.
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Date: 2016-10-04 02:44 pm (UTC)[video]
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Date: 2016-10-09 09:02 am (UTC)[video]
Date: 2016-10-10 08:21 pm (UTC)[video]
Date: 2016-10-12 12:49 pm (UTC)